It's been amazing being at home with my 2 girls. I never knew how rewarding being a stay at home mom could be. I definitely have found my love and passion and I am so blessed to be able to be where I am. I look at Ella every morning and can't get over how big she is getting. She is sweet, smart, loving, and so much fun. She is defiantly going to be the life of the party. She has no reservation and is very strong headed. Good for life, but bad for mommy! I am "mom" now, not momma or mommy, just mom. This makes me very sad. Where did this come from? The only time I'm "mommy" is when she is wanting something from me, and she knows I'm a sucker when she calls me mommy. I love getting to teach her and watch her learn new things, I love getting to see how excited she gets when I get out her favorite snack - cheese and crackers. I love that she has a fire in her and doesn't just blend in with everyone else. I love that she is brave and recovers quickly from any fall or booboo (after the magical kiss from mom or dad of course). I can't imagine life without her. She love attention and is quick to befriend anyone. She goes for the older crowd though- maybe because she has a brother she looks up to. I'm so blessed that I get to enjoy these moments with her and really get to know the sweet girl she is!
And my sweet baby Olivia.... I look at her and keep thinking I'm going to remember her this small, right? She's my baby, my last child, and I want to always see her as a tiny little newborn with such innocence for the rest of my life. But I need to face reality, like I do every day and know she is not going to stay a little baby forever! I haven't 'worked' with her as much as I did with Ella. Is it because I have a 6 year old and a 18 month old as well, or is this my non-concious effort to keep her my baby forever? Every day she is getting stronger and picking up on new tricks. I try to ignore them and just hold her, but she almost insists to be put on the ground to roll over or wants objects she can hold and examine. She loves grabbing anything and putting it to her mouth and sitting upright like a "real" big girl. She watches Ella a lot and takes in everything she is doing. It's a bitter sweet for me, just because I know how fast Ella grew up and saw her looking at Nick the same way. I love Olivia's fat little cheeks and her cute smile that makes her eyes look like slits on her round head. I love her deep chuckle when I really get to tickling her. I love her calm and easy going times of the day where I just get to hold her in my arms. I love that she sleeps in our room with us (even though she's 4 months old) and I love getting woke up at 4am for some snuggle/feeding time with her. I know most people would think I'm crazy for saying that, but this is the last time I will get to do this- so I'm soaking every second of it up! I love that Olivia is unique in her own ways and most of all I love how she makes this family complete.
I wouldn't trade my job as a mother for anything else in this world. It's the most gratifying experience I have ever had.
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